smoke is.

Smoke in the air
White without more color to wear
It fades easily in despair
Showing off nothing but its care

Ain’t no shape you can touch
Ain’t no clarity you can watch
This smoke doesn’t cause any scratch
It’s even too light to capture your sight

Then it fades on your way
No sounds you can find away
No power for dismay
Never wonder how it came along the way

The smoke has lost its glory
Leaving its destiny
Giving in its courage thoroughly
It has retreated for its new journey
And when you ask when it again be here
It smiles a dishearten key

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The Night and I

Lately I’ve been disturbed by the nights. I used to love every night as it gave me peaceful mind and clearer thought. No, not until I experienced a plain night in which I couldn’t feel hate nor love.

It’s now another night I must be through. A dark version of bright universe. A more silent model of a busy day that keeps my mind crowded as if the sun never let the moon take its throne.

I should’ve closed my eyes and stopped thinking. But, how can I? Even a lullaby cannot send me a dream. I’m so tired yet I’m awake and stirring my brain.

The sound of the night gives me some mysterious feeling, of wonder, of fright, of lonesome. The breeze, it gives me nothing but cold. All I know, every night is getting scary.

I can’t be honest no more. To the night I used to make a friend with, it’s now a cold talk here. We meet but we’re silent. We stare but we don’t see. The night and I, we’re getting distant.

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First Rain in the Summer Days

The first rain in a long summer  gives a different feeling. Not exactly a happy one but I’m quite glad to finally see the water run through the pavement, wet the roads, freshen the leaves.

And I always love the smell. The sense of wet ground which reminds me of a village life. I went outside my office room only to watch the water fall from the roof and smell the watered ground and leaves. It’s so beautiful.

The first rain in the summer days. It decreases the temperature down, of a hot afternoon, of a burning mind, of a broken heart.

Now it gives a cool air after some minute rain. Cool enough to start an evening with a glass of hot coffee. I’ve had one during the day but I think my heart is ok to accept another cup.

My mind is now cool enough to start writing. Don’t you feel the same that often I can’t concentrate when the weather is over heated. Now it is calming down this evening. So is my heart.

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A Sleeping Loner

I usually happy on Saturdays. Office hour ends earlier so I can reach home and rest soon. Sometimes I hangout with friends till dark but yeah, I don’t do that a lot. I love spending my time with family, small talk or just stay in my room reading while other family members are having good time downstairs. I can be a loner often.

Here comes another Saturday afternoon. Having taken a bath I’m now in my room with this smartphone, typing.

Often at the time like these I can be so sleepy but surely I won’t be sleeping for hours. If you once live in muslim country like mine, you’ll know the reason I can’t sleep the whole afternoon. First of all I have to pray five times a day in which the three are in the afternoon and evening. The second one, there’s always a call from masjid for every praying time. It’s quite loud from the speakers so the whole housings will ultimately hear that. Well, hey, it’s not one masjid but many and more. So now you can imagine living in public housings of a muslim country.

I love sleeping anyway. It’s like my brain is too tired and I want to rest it. Going shopping would hurt my brain more cus it takes more money. I only buy what I need, not what I want. But yeah, sometimes I spend more money on clothes and food. Only in case I’m tired of sleeping. After all, the cheapest cure for me is sleep, still.

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doubtful

Doubtful is I am
As beautiful song being rhymed
I listen but I don’t give a damn
Yea, I’ve been there and once my ears cramped
And I don’t want to have it again

Doubtful is here
Trying to enjoy but my heart breaks the spell
So tired as my body needs a silence
A state to just rebreathe a small substance
It’s just unwell

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To the West

It’s to the West the wind blows
It’s to rest all the nights slow
I’m not to bow, though
As I’ve scarred both my elbows

It’s to the West I’m making my paths
Left or right, it isn’t necessary to my head
On my journey will I see another deaths
I’m ready if one goes to myself

It’s to the West I’ll depart and return
Funny how I must go and be back to the same direction
but I’m sure that’s my last destination
And this is my minds I’ve mentioned

It’s to the west I hope I’ll see you
The ones that live in my dreams and through
The ones who’ve made me that I’m today
The ones I don’t want to decay

It’s to the West I’ll go
It’s on the North I appear
It’s to the South I’ll disappear
Then to the East I’m giving my ego.

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The Sound of the Universe

This universe seems to call my name at this time. I hear the echo resound over and over through my heart. It’s not that my hearing isn’t doing well but this is the first time of my life when I win my feelings over my logic.

Yea, I fall. It’s the sound of the universe calling my name. I fall too deep for the beauty of every word uttered. It’s the good intention, indeed, that keeps me turning back again to pay attention to what’s being said.

It’s the sound of the universe that’s humming a melody of both sadness and joy. I am completely stunned by the way God circulates this air of bravery. This is about how fright has become an old-fashioned statement and bright eyes be its successor.

Yea, I love this sound. It’s where the whole universe turns around and holds my very hands and guides me to a stage I never went through. Funny how I don’t feel afraid of stepping upper to higher level of an unknown state.

However, for the first time I heard the sound of the universe, someone on the back of my head told me it wouldn’t fit me. It’s like if I was wearing shoes with different size. It’s about aesthetics that people would see. Though if only they could see me clearer, the shoes had enough covered my feet. Me was at that doubt, too.

I’m with the sound of my universe. I wonder if I end it sadly or other will make an end for me, more beautiful than I’ve ever dreamed.

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